The things I’ll never say

You asked me if I wanted to say anything before I ended the call. I told you I’m fine and I cut it. I wanted to say a lot of things.

Sometimes, I wish the world was a place where I could trust a stranger.

Sometimes I feel like my heart is anchored to my insecurities.

Sometimes I feel like I’m a burden to those who love me.

Sometimes I want to shut the noise and drown in silence.

Sometimes my cheeks are red because I cry myself to sleep.

Sometimes I just want to end the circles. I can’t keep on running.

Sometimes I want to tell you everything.

But you might not want to listen.

If you give me your hand, I will pull you down with me.

Darkness consumes me for I let my soul rot in the sun.

I’m not anything but a taped mouth.

I hurt in silence.

I feel breathless when you make promises.

I know you will leave me.

I’d rather say silent.

The things I will never say.